There are certain situations that make me feel uneasy. These are the elements of a detached world–the unreal, the surreal, the nightmares. I know it sounds funny, but I get creeped out by three main life circumstances that happen to millions of people each day, I am sure.
The first situation is drug abuse. In watching movies featuring characters with drug issues(Ray, Walk The Line, Trainspotting), and seeing the effects of it on people in Seattle (and sometimes my students), I get almost angry at what happens to people who use drugs. They become shells of themselves. Enigmas, but hollow ones. The life that they feel they are rising to is a false one, and it alienates those around them. Irreparable damage inevitably ensues. And I just get plain creeped out. By the way, this includes drunkenness, anesthesia, and other reality-changing experiences.
The second is infidelity. Again, my response tonight regarding this situation is due to watching movies, but I think the reason this bothers me so much is because when you invest so much in someone else and realize that he or she is living a separate life that doesn’t include you, the trust is gone, the common bond is gone, the solidarity is gone, and doubts come in to haunt you for the rest of the relationship. Doubts, distrust, and a new reality that you aren’t everything to that person.
The last is clowns. No, just kidding, but I am sure that there are more of these situations that I will wrap my words around in the near future.
